rant rant rant all you want!

[Roadkill]

hah! i jst wanted to know what's going on with everyone?

Currently, i have a Alg 2 proj due next week that i'm procrastinating on. Its really easy -- use different types of equations of a line to make a picture or design. Basically, all that means is i have to get a picture, impose it onto a graph, trace out the major lines, and input the data points into a calculator to make an equation. Who cares about the good old fashioned way? Procrastination's more modern!

But that class is easy. As we get closes to the Final in world history, we have to spend time looking up that last minute stuff we didn't cover while studying our final material. We have officially reached the dregs. I am about to beat the shit out of some dickhead slackers in weight lifting who do not seem to understand working out. And french is french. Easy, and with lots of free time and gambling at the end of class. Next semester is not going to go as i planned and i will probably end up having to take some tech prep electives to fill up my shedule.

Which reminds me, that I may indeed end up going to the AF academy as i realize that everything is lined up for me to go. I have a grandfather and greatgrandfather on my mothers side who all attended the academy, my father attended the academy, my grades are good, i will be a falconer (and which branch is notorious for showing off its falcons?), and the simple fact that because the AF academy has very good education has attracted all the geeks who just want a degree and will be "bus drivers' (tankers and the like) for their career -- the demand for fighters and people with warrior mentality is high. And now i have the opportunity to push it over the edge, and join AFJROTC. It ain't the best, I certainly wouldn't pick it simply because the mentality of those in it is certainly anti-physical, and very civilian like. But even though i won't likely attend all three sessions to get me a better paycut, i can still use it to gain even higher recommendation. So bleh. We'll see what happens.

Speaking of falconry, i passed the test with an 88 (which seems to be common among those falconers who have studied). So I'm pretty much a member of the GA Falconry Association, and will spend the summer doing "arts and crafts," so to speak. Making hoods, jesses, a mews (a really big craft), perches, and traps. The trapping part should be fun, though the license costs more ($30, as compared to $10 for a standard license -- which is more often misused). Yay.

how am i going to pay for that? 2 jobs, hopefully. Or maybe just 1, but i hope for 2. Hopefully the movie theatre, and then a movie rental strore sounds nice. Heh. Then all the fast food restaurants have been applied to, and i missed an interview for wendy's last thursday due to my bus having a flat tire. And the fact that even though wendy's is across the street my parents made me ride the bus home, which added up, would basically be 70 minutes sitting on my ass just to be delivered back to point A. *shrug* The manager said "thursdays" anyway, so i hope it doesn't hurt me.

So yeah, i'm doing relatively good (except for that job part).

Whats going on with you?

[Dracofrost]

Well, grandfather on my father's side is having a health crisis going on. So, he might be dying... though if he keeps up the pattern he's got going the last few years, the doctors will say that he's about to dye and then he'll pull through. But, since he might not, me and my dad are going to be driving straight out to Colorado, so we can see him while we still can, or at least get a good visit if he does get better. Since it's been a rather long while since driving school, and anything in the way of driving practice for me, I'm pretty much re-learning to drive, and learning stick-shift for the first time, too. So that's 'fun' *coughterrifyingcough* . I should get in plenty of practice in the 25 or so hour drive out there, though. Plus tommorow I get to learn a little about taking care of a car when I help my dad install some new brake component. Musically, I haven't been doing much, though I recently got some new books. Hopefully they'll give me more stuff to practice, though I'm wondering about basic fundamental what kind of music I want to make. I'm considering using recording equipment and being a one person band, but if that happened, the only decent thing would be the bass playing, I think. Maybe some intresting stuff with synthesizers, once I can convince my dad to go to the trouble of getting them out of his storage unit. I'm trying to branch out, learn new stuff, perhaps start writting lyrics, but blah. Practicing alone is boring, heh. Still have no clue what type of music I'd create, though.

Anyways, that's just short term stuff. Long term, well, there's college to think about. I'm looking at UGA, since it's in Athens, and Athens has a good music scene, so mayhap if I went there that'd help insert me into the culture and possibly even a band. And UGA has a pretty good school of music, if I were to try majoring in that. Actually, my mom used to play with the man who is now currently the head of UGA's school of music, I think, so that could potentially help me get in if I decided upon that.

Back to shorter term... I'll probably end up looking for some sort of job or two myself, soon. Cause I'll need money for gas to get around, and books, and musical equipment. Plus, if I want to get anything better than this one 56k that runs through the only phone line in the house, I'll prolly end up having to pay for that myself. I suppose I could just try starting up a cult, and getting money that way, but I'm not sure I could live with the dishonesty of that, so I'll just have to get a day job until people start really liking my music. Or maybe I'll write some book. Who knows...

[Real_Pochacco]

Meh. I need a girlfriend.

That's me right now.

No but really. I have school stuff to do. And I've been playing Final Fantasy IX a lot lately.

Damn. *pokes the people I know, for they prevent meh from being totally annoynonmousmousmous* But it's all good.

Not.

And I'm suppossed to be doing several things besides talking here.

*note: Latin is fucking hard*

At least I'm not having an identity crisis. No that's tommorrow.

Yay.

I rant like this, so deal. I believe I'm going to start going *heeheehee* to a UU church somewhere around here. I'll take the bus. But I have to wake up early, and that's pretty bootleg.

You know most kids my age wouldn't be hanging out with their parents on friday and saturday. Every friday and saturday. At least not around here.

*feels sort of empty tod-ay*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA u suck.

*end of transmission, maybe, or I might just keep going*

I wonder how long it takes b4 I am discovered that I'm not doing what I should be doing (Latin).

Hey but next weekend I'm seeing the Front, live, in Berkeley. Kick asth.

And the weekend after is the prerelease, biznotches. But it might suck without James *what am I saying its definitely going to suck, relative to a prerelease w/ James*

And the weekend after is Bay Con. I don't know how cool that's going to be.

Which brings me full circle to the need for a girlfriend (don't ask how).

I wonder how long this is. Praises to those who read this far.

[TerraFrost]

the main reason i release phpBB hacks is to earn the respect of people. however, i think my phpBB BackUp hack is doing the opposite of that. not only is no one better off for the autobackup feature in it (since it doesn't seem to work for anyone save myself), but... i think people are actually worse off for it. it's tried people's patience, and has probably made people wonder what business i have even presuming to be a coder. in other words, despite my intentions, people are now probably losing respect for me... hooray.

[ChatOmbre]

I might be sick. blah. I've been teetering on the edge of a migrane for some of yesterday and all of today so far. My throat, back, neck, ears.... (heck, everything!) hurts. I feel so useless when I'm like this. I can't sleep it off, but I can't get anything done either. I'm hoping that this is just one of my crashes and not me getting sick. *pokes self* I refuse to be sick.

One of my cats, Shelley, is also sick, so she's been throwing up here and there all day.

I'm not feeling well enough to go to ballet tonight, which is *not* good because our recital is in June and we're (hopefully) finishing up our dance today. We need to finish it and clean it up some more. Speaking of ballet, everyone but one other girl (who hardly ever shows up to class) and I went en pointe last week. I know that I'm not strong enough yet and my mom doesn't want me to go en pointe unless I'm going to be a professional dance, but it hurt to see all of them go en pointe before me. All but one of the girls that went en pointe are a few years younger than me, so they're lighter and don't need to be as strong. I guess it's silly of me to want to go en pointe, because it's like torture to your feet, but I still want to. It's something of a rite of passage among dancers, though. It's kind of ironic that they all want to go en pointe, but then once they do they complain about how hard it is. heh.

I realized the other day that I haven't completely considered anywhere home since I moved up from Dublin (no, not Dublin, Ireland, I'm talking about Dublin, GA). I mean, sure, I've called the places that I've lived since then home and they've been home in most ways, but that's not what I mean. For me to completely consider a place to be my home, I have to be settled in there. Just off the top of my head... I have to be totally unpacked, fairly pleased with the way I have my room, everything should have it's place, nothing should be in a place that's difficult for me to get to, and my room should be a place that I like to spend time in. I haven't had that in a while, not even in the Stone Moutain house (which we lived in for three years). I espcially didn't like living in the apartment. The thing I liked most about it was the bits of creek and woods that I could retreat to when I felt like it and sitting on top of a shed that I found a way to climb. I think that's why moving isn't a big deal to me any more. It was very hard on my parents, but to me that's just the way life goes. I've become a bit numb to things like that. For as long as I remember I've been moving and/or traveling a lot. Hopefully the Castle will fully become home to me.

Well, I think that's the end of my rant for now....

[Ladydrummer]

I rant in drabs:
1. I think the fairy has been visiting me too much (Kaos)
2. I had to break up with my boyfriend but we can't keep our hans to ourselves.
3. Math is making my damn head hurt
4. I feel do alone and lost that I can't breathe anymore
5. I'm so broke I couldn't change my mind

[Kaos]

i rant randomly..

i have to get 8 songs downpat for a tonedeaf choir. i have finals coming up. i have to move to georgia because mommy says so. my daddy isn't here with us anymore. i'm falling deeper and deeper into depression. i think i'm bipolar. i hate school. my boyfriend is ooberly sad since i'm moving, i have to go to choir practice for 4 consecutive hours. i hate my life sometimes.

..there...

1. I think the fairy has been visiting me too much (Kaos)

the pms fairy? ah, of course. she's taken residence in my house, and is affecting everyone else but me. leaving everyone angry, and me confused by all these burns i'm getting >.<

[Neerowolf]

Know what I hate? RANT THREADS!

Er... uh, just kidding.

I don't understand religion. I guess... its just some way for lost people to try to cope with their lives. I mean, I'm not atheist, I have my own religion. No, not religion, a belief. No, less concentrated, an idea. I have an idea of a omniscent being that has govern in our lives, but I'm not believing any of the lies spread for religion. Why should I believe in jesus, when I could believe in allah? Either way, I'm going to hell. Unless there is some way for me to appeal to all religions, then I'm happy going to hell. Some religions don't even believe in hell. Its useless to join one. You decide what you want to believe. Don't just jump on the christian bandwagon because its right, or someone told you to. Whatever makes you able to release the tension of your worries.

it's dumb, I guess. Any other thoughts?

[Wolfie]

im sorry i got you sick kitty! ;-; i didnt mean too

Well my grandmas in the hospital and is likely going to die in a few days, my mom just gave my dog away, i have what im quite sure is the flu and a few days ago a stomache virus, my moms mad cus' i got my lil sis sick, and school overall sucks

[Real_Pochacco]

Hey I thought of something wittay to say. But that time is over now.

My fingers hurt. And I can't tie balloons for the life on meh.

Edit: Oh yeah! I remember now!

It could be worse. You could find out that your boyfriend is actually your brother. Ewwwww. (happened on an episode of Law & Order SVU)

[Roadkill]

that also happened on star wars.

Okay, generally i worry about my troops overall position right now. We have gone from just another dohickey troop to the most highly revered troop in our council. Just this past campout (scoutfest), it was obvious. But, i do not think we will be able to keep it this six months. A not-too-bright unconcerned black skinny boy who is still second class because he can't swim is at the head of our "new boy patrol" right now. He is bossy, just simply screws up alot, cannot lead by example, is wasteful, and generaly just keeps the discontent and argueing going when he should be working to keep the new boys working at what they should be. Generally, it creates chaos -- i feel like i'm the only one really leading the patrol, and i'm the Instructor. The fact that he has the position to take control, and that he likes the feeling of power, generally doesn't make things easy -- his and my orders seem to clash and get in the way alot. I tell him get your patrol in line, get them doing this -- and he blames everyone else when he failed to get them to do KP after desert. I mean goddamn, admit you didn't want to do it, and its your own damn fault for not making sure. I have no fing clue how we're going to survive the next 2 or 3 months with him as PL.

It doesn't help that our SPL keeps making our really well-recieved and revered crossover ceremony simpler and simpler. It used to take 15-20 minutes, and now takes less than 5!

and right now i should be doing a math project i haven't done yet. ah well,

on the bright side, my acne must be at a relative all time low, and i had scouts (not just adults) come up and thank me for a well done flag ceremony (people like my loud, commanding voice -- so do i, at times).

[Neerowolf]

Why the hell is there a rant thread anyways? The people who need to rant can make their own threads. In this thread, no one's paying attention to other people. It ruins the point of ranting. No one will listen to them, because they have their own problems.

[Real_Pochacco]

Why the hell is there a rant thread anyways? The people who need to rant can make their own threads. In this thread, no one's paying attention to other people. It ruins the point of ranting. No one will listen to them, because they have their own problems.

Wow neerowolf you said something that was actually true for once.

No but really I totally agree.\


Edit: Yeah but it was different from what happened in starwars. This guy had two wives who each didn't know the other exsisted and their kids... well you get the picture.

[ChatOmbre]

Why the hell is there a rant thread anyways? The people who need to rant can make their own threads. In this thread, no one's paying attention to other people. It ruins the point of ranting. No one will listen to them, because they have their own problems.

I'm not sure if I agree with you or not. <_> Perhaps this thread was meant mostly as just a place for people to rant to get things out of their system and write it down.

[Roadkill]

on contrary, i think it exactly accomplishes the goal i intended for it. People generally hold a bit of steam, or have some thoughts, but do not wish to induce pity (or feelings of sorrow) or disturb everyone elses day and feelings by making a rant thread of their own. Thus, this exists. A sort of group live journal without all the fancy technical details, and more likely to be read not only because it is in a forum, but because it shifts from person to person, and eventually these rants may or may not connect, as people may perhaps sympathyze in such a way that seems to put it together into a story. "yeah, something similar happened to me today. first blah blah blah blah balh..." Plus, it allows everyone one simple stop to keep up with what is going on in everyone else's real lives.


and i don't think real pacho is on the same level as me. He's higher up there, somewhere. Cloud city, perhaps?